My Dearest Maya,
You would have been 18 months old today. I’ve thought all day about what you’d be like. Walking, talking, set in your ways, and eagerly anticipating the holiday season. I know you’d have quite the personality and would always keep Daddy and I on our toes. I imagine we would have filled this month with lots of fun family activities. You’d be the life of every holiday party. I picture you looking a lot like Mommy looked at your age – curly hair about shoulder length, chubby chubby cheeks, and an adorable button nose! Oh how I would love to see your beautiful face!
Even though I don’t write here as often as I used to, I still think about you daily. I say goodnight to you every night and tell you I love you when I see the gorgeous pink sky. Any time the clock reads 6:16, I know you’re saying hi. I miss you so much. Sometimes, I feel bad that life has gone on without you here. But then I remember that you are here. We live our lives the way we do because of you. You continue to help us understand what is important, especially this time of year.
Your little brother/sister is doing well – continuing to grow inside Mommy’s belly. I ask you every morning to continue watching over him/her. I know you are with us. I know that you have helped Mommy get through this pregnancy. It’s been scary, but knowing I have my little angel on my shoulder helps the days pass by. I wish you were here to anticipate the new baby’s arrival. I wish we could enjoy this baby through your eyes. But I know that we will be better parents because of you. I know we will make a conscious effort to cherish each and every moment. That is how I have approached this pregnancy – every day is a gift and I must enjoy all the time I have with this new little life.
Happy 18 months sweet angel. Keep watching out for Mommy and Daddy. Be with us in the weeks to come as we prepare to bring this baby into the world.
I love you and miss you always and forever.
Love Love Love,